I see, I see

This morning I woke up with an idea.  That's not unusual for me, I do that often.  These ideas tend to be brilliant, have the possiblity of becoming quite grandious, and usually involve saving the world.  What can I say, that's just how I roll. 

Today's idea was a little different though; it had much less to do with saving the world and a whole lot more to do with taking care of me.  Here is a little back story to help bring you to where I am:  Yesterday I went to see a podiatrist to follow up on my two week old toe injury.  (I'll spare details out of respect for the cringers).  Doctor said the toe looks amazing, but then proceded to help me out with some other toe related needs, needs that I should have taken care of, but didn't because, well I have lot's of reasons, but the reality is that I just wasn't taking care of me.  As you, the readers of this blog, are a selective audience, you may be aware that I've been having some deep rooted conversations lately.  These conversations could have been titled: "My whole life is out of control", "I don't know where my life is headed but it needs to change,"  and my most recent and favorite because I believe it is the beginning of setting me on the right path, "I am complete in Christ". 

That being said, I'll say it again, "I am complete in Christ."  Now you do it.  Amazing, right?  It's like a breath of fresh air and a smack in the face all at the same time.  This phrase came to me Sunday morning during worship service as I half gave my whole heart up to God and half sat completely in a mental puddle lamenting of what I want but can't have.  (To be half and completely in two places in one time is not possible- I realize this- however this is truly the most accurate way to describe the experience.)  I'm not sure how the phrase got there, but it stuck and hasn't left.  It is beginning to permeate my heart and is becoming what I need to crush the negative thoughts that are continually bringing me down.

So back to my big idea: At the doctor's office yesterday I was placed on a 40 day treatment plan.  That is 40 days of me intentionally taking care of me, something that I have put off for way to long.  Hmm, so what if, I make these 40 days a little bigger than that?  What if I make them really all about me?  Not about coming up with a list of ways to perfect myself, but just of each day intentionally remembering that, "I am complete in Christ" and I should take care of myself accordingly.  What an awesome idea that would be!  Forty days of me, of growing closer to Him, and of taking baby steps in my life to love a little better the one person I'm closest to: Me. 

So what do you think friends?  I need some accountability.  Like I said, this isn't going to be a bunch of goals, but I do have two: 1.) I will remind myself daily that, "I am complete in Christ", and 2.) I will write (though not necessarrilly publish due to internet access). each day of the 40 days.  Other than that, it is a mystery where the 40 days will lead me, are you in? 

Lot's of Love,

Cary